pre-twentyone.

'Because what I don't know, is never gonna hurt me' - Shane Mack


Within a couple of days I finally turn 21. Twenty fucking one. An age I always wanted to become, because it's set, you finally are a grown up. Actually while at the moment, I feel very much far from being a grown up at all. Maybe I should look up to being 30 right now, ha.

Looking back at all the years, after just watching this gorgeous movie called Shelter, my life may not always have been easy, but I'm very happy with the person I became and am at this very moment. And I guess that means that all the things that happened in my life, made me the person I am right now.. So I can't really take away certain periods or things.

It's weird, but I see myself getting older, smarter, or maybe I actually mean more wise. Oh fuck, again, I'm blogging and crying. Almost twentyone and still a crybaby in a certain way, ha. I just sometimes have a hard time with being who I am at this age.


Anyway, enough of the personal talk for now. I should keep in mind that a few thousand people from over more than 150 different coutries are visiting, and probably reading, this blog. Which I still find weird, but cool in a certain way aswell. So today, after visiting Gran' I spend a few hours cleaning up my room. I simply threw all my stuff, except my magazines, on the floor and now it's oganized, on colour, perfect and all. I do feel good actually, eventhough I havn't slept that much lastnight, going to the Dutch Fashion Awards, in a dress, photos will arrive later, ha.

Oh, and my dear Aynouk won the Female Fashion Icon 2008 Award! Which so pretty much earns, recieving the award on stage in a huge white dress, fashionable as ever.

Gosh, I think I'll have a lot of posting to do tomorrow. But for now, I know that to do. Not really impulsive, because I thought about it more early, but stil.. I'm going out! Which means, I have to take the bus in a few minutes, ha. Bye! x